AU where John Winchester loved his boys just a little bit less and put them up for adoption and they were raised in a healthy, functional home.
winter dean/cas ❤
How long will I be with you
As long as the sea is bound to
Wash up on the sand x
#look dean#I’m hunting#I’m useful#I can do what you do Dean#I can be of help to you#Dean#please let me stay with you#please don’t shut me out#please don’t discard me like an used up tool with a broken handle#dean please#please love me#please#I thought maybe… (via yellow-turtle)
And you have to wonder, don’t you? How much of Cas’ decision to take Theo’s grace was because he wanted to be useful again- or maybe because he knew that he couldn’t be with Dean, human or angel, and the only thing that he could do was stay away the way that Dean asked, was to become the hardened warrior that he had put aside in Dean’s gentling presence. Dean doesn’t accept him as a human, not the way that Cas sees it, and so he steals another angel’s grace and distances himself again, because the worst pain of humanity isn’t the physical, it’s the roaring in his ears when Dean tells him to go.
While I don’t think this was his only motivation, I am pretty convinced that Dean’s renewed rejection ultimately contributed to Cas stealing another angel’s grace - which, by the implication of it, appears to be some kind of taboo. Lacking background knowledge, Cas apparently believed that Dean rejected the human he’d become. That a humble, somewhat dorky sales associate was not someone he would ever want to associate with. That Dean’s interest in him was merely in the what, not in the who. And it’s so sad because you could see so clearly that Dean loved human!Cas to pieces. He was so proud, so happy. I think this is emphasised one last time when he asks Cas whether he’s really okay with being an angel again. Because apparently, deep down, Dean is not. He wanted to be with human!Cas and experience all the human goodness with him, like having beers together, or watching movies, or just being adorably dorky. And then Cas calls him and he realises it’s already over and he didn’t even get to cherish it. Poor Dean, poor Cas.
However, I think Cas’ eventual choice also ties in with other parts of his personality. He tried to stay out of the fray, but he couldn’t, because that’s not who he is - human or not. When Cas showed up at the crime scene, I felt his decision was already made.
As dustydreamsanddirtyscars pointed out, Malachi is both a call-back to season 6!Cas as well as a veritable possibility who Cas might eventually become if he continues rejecting his “human” side, the part of him that is kind and compassionate, that craves love and apprecation, that wants to be safe and wanted and happy. Castiel rejected that part for the time being because he feels it only keeps him from doing what must be done, but as said here, I am also certain that this choice was triggered and ultimately reinforced by Dean’s attitude.
Ah, Lady, you took several words right out of my mouth.
Cas cannibalizing another angel is both delicious drama (even if I weren’t already thrilled by having other Cas back in some form) and it’s just another way Dean’s also taboo choices this season have negatively informed his family. Human!Cas was as much a casualty as Kevin. (And that’s interesting meta for another day—how Kevin and Cas’ arcs paralleled each other this season).
I also thought that Dean was worried for Cas and maybe beginning to realize how much he’d failed him as a human when he asked if he was okay with his newly purloined grace. I hope this means that Dean truly begins analyzing and facing his feelings for Cas in the upcoming season. I hope this means that the time they spend together working against Gadreel/Metatron while trying to save Sam is spent communicating honestly—that he heeds the lessons of 5x03’s END!verse in approaching this new END!verse.
Klaus: In my desire to reclaim this town, to steal from Marcel that which he holds most dear I have realized one massive vulnerability, one weakness that Marcel could exploit.
Elijah: And what is that?
He’s not the only one.
castiel + quotes
the originals cast playing with a piñata (x)
sam winchester meme: favorite quotes about sam 
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